Deprogramming is not about improving one’s life. It’s about being oneself, within one’s life. It’s being the author of one’s life, within the parameters of life circumstances.

I hear that you are not into The Struggle. I’m not much of a fan myself. But I get the feeling that this exhaustion and movement toward surrender is about something else. Something other than feeling unenthusiastic about facing down the Programs.

Surrender comes when you’ve played out your hand and you can’t go any further in your current form, whatever than means. It’s not the same as letting life do what it’s going to do, because it’s going to do it anyway.

I hear you are sad and tired and sad of being tired and tired of being sad and wanting to just be done with it…just close the curtains on the false self, already! I’m tired of being me. No, no, my darling…you are tired of not being you! Of being revved up and driven in tight skid-producing figure eights in the Matrix Mall Parking Lot.

I’m not negating the way you feel. I can feel it, too, from you. But do be careful with how you describe this to yourself.