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Pointless: When Life Loses All Meaning
Sudden spiritual awakening can be followed by a profound lack of motivation and the feeling that life is meaningless. How do we navigate this? When…
Bliss vs Ecstasy (and when to put the knife down)
Every awakening emerges in its own peculiar way. Some of you will slip in and out of Bliss, some will pretty much be engulfed in…
Reader Q&A: I’m Having Trouble Turning My Passions into a Business
“I’m really interested in doing things. On the other hand, when it comes to translate an activity in a business idea. I’m stuck.”
Meeting Your Destiny
Some of us do the deepest work in our dreams. Who are these characters in our dreams, and what are they telling us? Sometimes we…
How To Cope With The Pain of Life
The world is going to break your heart. To pieces. Or maybe it will feel more like having your heart slowly wrung out, like a…
Developing Agency: becoming someone you can trust
You need to develop personal accountability if you are ever going to trust yourself. One of the ways we give up authorship and sovereignty is…
Continuing in the Face of Discouragement
I gather, guard and transmit my power, my essence, my signature. It’s really quite effortless and natural at this point, but can you even imagine…
What to do When People Start to Worship You
You’re newly awakened and the people around you can really feel it. They have “spiritual experiences” in your presence. They perceive the light of Source…
Learn life skills your parents didn’t or couldn’t teach you
Ready to deprogram destructive patterns you learned growing up? Great, but that’s only half of it. It’s your choice, and also your responsibility. That’s a…
Avoiding People and Social Interactions
All at once, I saw people all-through-time, I saw them as glowing balls of light, I saw them riddled with parasitic attachments, I saw them…
Lessons From Day Trading: Dealing With Thought Loops
What can day trading teach you about mastering your mind? People assume my ability to master thoughts and emotions is a byproduct of spiritual enlightenment.
Working With Your Flaws Like a Pro
Tips on how to deal with your faults, failings and negative behaviors. How to handle the things you really don’t like about yourself. Developing relentless…
Are people in your life figments of your imagination?
Do you experience a surreal feeling that you are dreaming the people in your life…that they are reflections of yourself? This is not a mental…
What Would the World be Like if Everyone Was Enlightened?
With so many people striving toward enlightenment, what would happen if one morning we all woke up enlightened? It’s such a funny thing to contemplate.…
Forgive yourself…in advance
Moving from insight to consistent action isn’t easy. Want to change your life, work on a project, create something? You’re going to need more than…
Can Enlightened People Act Immorally?
Enlightenment has naught to do with morality or ethical concerns. Nothing. Moreover, unless you are already an extremely grounded and wise person, enlightenment can make…
Relationships After Enlightenment
I was alone in the woods on a summer night, when suddenly, I woke up. Instantly, spectacularly, and completely out of the blue. On the…
To Hermit or Not to Hermit
Feeling the urge to retreat from the human fray into a spiritual hermitage? Being a hermit is not a reaction to anything. If you have…
Feel the Heat of My Wushu
After spiritual awakening, people may be affected by your energy field in unexpected ways. You become a conduit of some kind of primordial energy flow.…
The Difference Between Enlightenment and Having Spiritual Experiences
So far I’ve spoken pretty much exclusively about having, surviving and integrating radical spiritual experiences and not so much about enlightenment. Let’s talk a little…
Get a Grip: Life, Sex and Relationships After Kundalini Awakening
After a Kundalini activation you might find people reacting to you in the most unusual ways. If you find your energy has become a bit…
Getting Back to Zero
How to connect with spirituality directly. Something I’ve noticed over the years of communicating with spiritual people is how crowded their minds become with the…
The Dream Within the Dream
Is there any point to telling dreamers that they are dreaming? I get the call around 2am and rush to put some clothes on, trying…
Chariot
I’m pretty much in a constant state of amazement, astonishment. Everything is real/not real. Just throughout the day, I’m fuqing astonished at…I don’t know….my curtains,…
Which Limbo?
Spiritual Limbo may seem like one thing, but whenever you express yourself in these questions, I see so many aspects all bundled together. This may…
Dream Yoga: Remaining Conscious During Sleep
The effects of doing dream yoga after spiritual awakening can be fruitful…and strange. My late husband lived in a Tibetan Bonpo monastery for months at…
Incoming! How to Live with Extrasensory Perception: How I Handle Ultra Sensory Downloads From Clients
Being psychic can take a physical toll. Here’s some advice about managing psychic downloads. When you’re Ultra Sensory, you have to learn to be smart…
The Neurological Effects of Being Ultra Sensory
Learning how to live Ultra Sensory takes some effort and finesse. The need for awareness and mastery with things like boundaries, recognizing what does not…
Inquisitive vs Acquisitive: Inquiring Minds Want to Know
The mind is not your enemy, unless its actions and mechanisms remain unexamined. Becoming intimately familiar with the levels, processes and different modes of functioning…
The Path of Integration: Why Are People Reacting Strangely to Me
After spiritual awakening, you may notice that people treat you differently. And not just people close to you, but people you’ve only just met or…
Fear In Transition
Blast! Awakening is amazing and powerful and all that. And maybe for some people everything falls into place perfectly when they awaken. Everything is okay…
Falling Out of Life
All of Limbo Land has higher gravity than we are used to. But this particular level, Abandoned by God, has some other peculiar forces in…
The Bodhisattva’s Guide to Dealing With Trump Supporters
I’ve been friends with Doug since I was 18, and he knows I am totally apolitical. I’ve never discussed politics, never cared to and absolutely…
Dead or Alive?
From which point are you asking questions? Are your questions living or dead? Questions that come from the mind are dead questions. It doesn’t mean…
Checking in or checking out?
How to jump back in the petri dish of humankind. Like many people who wake up, I went through many phases of working within this…
Physical Symptoms of Spiritual Awakening: What Happens to the Body After Enlightenment?
Who knew spiritual enlightenment would be so physical? The body can also go through massive changes and when that happens, you can experience some really…
Vision and Prophecy
They may be new to you, or your prior abilities may have been nitro-enhanced by your Third Eye upgrade. Whatever the case, you may be…
Will enlightenment make you happy?
Enlightenment does not happen to improve life. To an unenlightened person who is inclined toward happiness, life can be glorious. To people who tend toward…
When Past Lives & Parallel Lives Break Through Your Reality
How can your past life or parallel universe self affect you? We look at two ways your past and parallel reality lives can connect with…
Deprogramming is Possible
Are you ready to update your mental default programming? I think what’s hard is not knowing where to apply ourselves…spending our energy in places where…
If the world isn’t real, why should I stay?
Reader Q&A. If you’ve got a ticket to Nirvana, why should you stick around ’till the curtain closes? A reader observes that people are unreal,…
Inner Dialogue vs Outer Diaologue
Normal is not the same as sane. What makes you different from the crazy homeless lady, dressed in rags, talking nonsense day after day? She’s…
The Door That Death Opens
A reader asks a poignant question about life, love and death after losing his father. Life and death are bound together. You can easily grasp…
Me, and My Imaginary Friends
For the first couple of years, all the people in my life, the ones close to me and the ones I met casually at the…
Understanding Intuition
A sober take on Inner Guidance. Intuition, inner guidance, inner knowing — how do we understand, develop and use this ability? How do you experience…
Reclaim Your Mind and Emotions From Thought Loops
Compulsive thought loops are so pervasive that we believe they are a normal part of being human. While they are common, they are definitely not…
The New Powerful You: Mastering Your Upgrade
“You call this an upgrade?” Yeah, I feel you. Sometimes it can feel like a handicap. Like you’ve been debilitated in some way. But think…
What’s The Endgame?
Today we talk about the swag bag of enlightenment. And what happens when your bag is empty. Why does it seem that your spiritual quest…
Getting to the root of a spiritual crisis
Spirituality can fuq you up. Spiritual pursuit, meditation and practices can illuminate a few corridors, while leaving you blind to everything else. Sometimes spirituality is…
Lighten Up: Emotions
One thing that happened when I awoke is that my heart emptied out. That sounds terrible, doesn’t it? As if my heart became hollow. That…
Ultra Sensory Q&A: “I’m suddenly seeing light and patterns I never saw before”
A reader writes: “Lately I have been seeing things that I didn’t see before. Vibrating/moving/cascading light in surfaces and atmosphere. It all started about a…
Recommendations: One More Bump Should Do The Trick
Full awakening is life altering. Seeing through the illusion of self is life altering. If you are looking for more practices, books, retreats and methods…
Reader Q&A: I Need To Break My Internet Addiction
Whether it’s news or cat videos, you may find you just can’t stop. Are you addicted to the internet? Let’s step into our reader’s experience…
Audio Spell: Cutting Etheric Cords
A sumptuous waterfall of sound, intricately woven into an Audio Spell to remove emotional attachments and cut energetic cords. Breathe and relax into emotional freedom,…
Reading And Enlightenment
Sudden enlightenment can bring on a cascade of potentially disturbing phenomena. Your brain may not work the way it used to. For instance, you may…
Observation: your greatest ally
Should. The word seems innocuous enough, but when you find yourself using it in the context of your spiritual work, it’s a cue to stop…
Bad Behavior: When People Try to Harm You
Losing your persona may mean losing your status as a person. It can be like having your citizenship revoked, only for the whole human race.…
How to Engage in Life Again
After spiritual awakening, you may spend some time in the Hermit’s Cave. If it’s been a long time, you may be asking…how can I have…
The Power of No
It’s the perfect time of year to practice saying no. Not an apologetic no, the one where you have to qualify and explain and justify…
Feeling Guilty About Things Other People Do
So, there are several different components to this bit of programming that you’ll want to investigate further and become aware of. This is a pattern…
Spiritual Enlightenment: A Cure For Mental Illness?
Many people who are spiritual seekers have mental health issues. Some are aware of this, have been diagnosed and are either in or out of…
The Emperor Who Forgot
Yang energy moving outward conquering organizing pushing through using one’s own resources Bring all outgoing forces to the Heart and let them rest there
Getting Out of Your Own Way
Would you rather be spiritual or awake? Becoming spiritual is something separate from waking up. Becoming spiritual definitely has methods, teachings, progress. It has its…
They May Not {they do not} Understand You
Hands up, who here is enlightened? You? Okay, good. This is for you, then. Pull up a chair and let’s talk. Have you noticed that…
The Covid Pandemic is an Opportunity for Massive Personal and Spiritual Growth
I’m in lockdown. Coronavirus has completely unwoven the fabric of my life. So why am I so damn excited? Grinning from ear to ear. Of…
Am I Wasting My Potential?
Let’s explore this potent question of living up to, or wasting, one’s potential. Once we get that out of the way, we can actually get…
Reader Q&A: Sex After Kundalini Awakening
Will having sex after Kundalini awakening cause further activation? While I’m interested in having sex with my husband, I’m terrified that it will get things…
Shifting The Location of Consciousness
Where do you experience the seat of your consciousness? If you are undergoing changes brought on by a sudden spiritual awakening, this may shift to…
Happy Pizza & the Meaning of Everything
Lifting the veil and coming back empty handed. There used to be an infamous pizza joint in Phnom Penh called Happy Pizza. Who knows how the…
Fist Full of Dollars
One tends to chase after experiences such as bliss and oneness with what we will, for convenience, call God. But these experiences come and go,…
Post Awakening: What am I Doing Here?
The persona, or what is popularly called the Ego, is limiting, to be sure. But damned if it doesn’t have its uses! After spiritual enlightenment,…
Sage Advice
When to seek spiritual advice. I love Nissargadatta, but I wouldn’t take any advice from Nissargadatta about anything other than high level, real deal enlightenment.…
Enlightened Ultra Sight Or Blindness?
If ever I imagined the awakened state, it surely never included such funky bodily experiences. Or if there were funky experiences, they would have more…
Why Should You Believe Me?
Spiritual teachers say a lot of conflicting things. How do we know what is true? This is such an important question. Leaving the issue of…
Prime Directive
Until you are in persistent alignment with your authentic being, any entity or control program can use the word “I” when speaking on your channel…
The omni-directionality of now
The ripple effect: what you do now affects the past, not just the future. We are going to dip our toes into the weirdness of…
Unconditional Love
What is it? How do I get some? I had a vision the other day. It was so powerful that it kind of knocked me…
Morning Rituals
Are you serious about transforming your life? I was asked if I have a morning ritual or if I set an intention for the day.…
How to Deal with Losing Your Motivation
Welcome to the elite group of moody, anti-social, unmotivated enlightened people! Congrats! Some people experience a profound loss of motivation, and lose the desire and ability…
How to manage being overwhelmed by thought loops
What to do when you go from one thought loop to another? How to deal with the sheer number of these programs? Getting an accurate…
What’s Your Ratio? Spiritual Consumption vs Practice
Are you serious about spiritual evolution, personal growth, deprogramming the mind, mastering your thoughts, emotions and focus? This bad habit may be holding you back.
Choosing Your Perspective
This is part of a conversation I’ve been having with a reader. He’s been going through a lot, and his symptoms are ones many of…
Welcome to My Afterlife
I feel like I’m dead. Like I’ve died and now I am a ghost, haunting my former life. My house is my own mausoleum, complete…
Don’t Let The Kriyas Get You Down
If you are undergoing sudden spiritual enlightenment, don’t be alarmed if you start making sounds, chanting, singing and doing odd postures. It’s called krias, baby!…
What’s the Point of Lucid Dreaming?
Seeking or avoiding boredom in dreams. But it’s really telling, that combo. Pleasure seeking and avoiding boredom. What does that mean to you?
I Am the Teaching
An illustration of the inseparability of process and manifestation. Prior to awakening, I had the most vivid and extraordinary dream. In this dream, I realized…
Sayonara, Samsara. I’m Going Home
After awakening, you may feel you don’t belong here. People are fumbling around, sleepwalking. Avarice and manipulation are hardwired into our institutions. Perhaps you only get…
What’s You and Not You
Today let’s investigate what’s you, and what’s not you. What’s yours and what’s not yours. These are topics we work on at length in the…
Demystification of Enlightenment
When a secular person goes through an intense enlightenment process, it is natural to look around and try to find others who have gone through…
How to Avoid Negative Thoughts and Emotions
“After doing all this spiritual work, why am I still not able to stay positive? Sometimes I feel love, forgiveness, compassion toward people (and toward…
Karma Accelerator
What happens to karma after spiritual enlightenment? After enlightenment, my karma unwound with breathtaking speed. I also noticed that I catalyzed the karma of those…
Guardian Angels: Saving Lives, Sometimes
An ancient man, sun darkened from laboring in the rice paddies, wrinkled and wearing an old fashioned sarong, crossed the road to see if I…
Feeling Something Isn’t Quite Right | Post Awakening Limbo
Limbo Lounge: installment 2. Let’s introduce the feeling that things are not quite right. Are you supposed to do something else?
After Spiritual Awakening I Don’t Recognize Myself in the Mirror
About six months after the Big Bang, Triple Rainbow spiritual enlightenment I found myself in a Paris holiday flat looking into the mirror at someone…
The Truth About Parenting, Childhood Wounds & Growing Up
Whether you’re a parent or not, this is important for everyone. A lot of the issues that come up in parenting are really not even…
Fledgling Fascination with the No Self
Post Enlightenment Survival Guide Get over your {no} self! Let’s face it, apprehending that you are not a Self and that the Self you always…
Negative Self Talk: The Inner Dialogue
Is your inner talk show host a bully, critic, heckler, naysayer, worrier, doom monger, hysteric? What’s playing in that pretty head of yours? One of…
Boredom and distraction on the spiritual path
Most people have no idea how their minds actually work. If you aren’t using your mind intentionally, something else will use it for you. When…
Deprogramming Childhood Survival Programs
Dealing with “duality” persona programs. One is created in early childhood and the second is created when you are older, maybe even a young adult,…
Dreaming You Are Asleep
Finally, morning came. And why not? Who needs the night to stretch on and one when there isn’t a moment of sleep in it? My…
Relaxing into the Paradox
All of your so called waking hours, the mental apparatus is arranging and rearranging the furniture, so to speak, to create your unique experience of…
Spiritual Enlightenment and Sound
Who knew that sudden spiritual awakening would have its own soundtrack? If you’re one of the growing number of people who experience sudden spiritual enlightenment,…
A day in a life
What’s life like after spiritual enlightenment? I woke up in my house in the woods and by the sea, before dawn. I am conscious whilst…
It’s Just a Phase
How not to end up in a spiritual niche or dead end after spiritual awakening. Whatever your perspective of the moment, it’s just a phase,…
Ultra Sensory: How My Body Perceives and Reacts to Lightning
I can’t really describe what it feels like to have your energy sphere collapse. I tried to bring it up again, fortify my boundary, but…
Confessions of a Geosensitive
Siddhis From Hell. One of the many bizarre changes I went through after spiritual awakening was becoming exquisitely, excruciatingly sensitive to seismic activity. A pressure…
Siddhis: Psychic Telepathic Communication Through Touch
Life after sudden spiritual awakening: So, you’re already dealing with sudden spiritual awakening…that’s weird enough, right? But some of you will also gain psychic abilities…
How did we get so stuck?
Keeping the growth mindset throughout your life. The societal demand to answer the question “who are you” leads to self-image fixation. If you switch from…
Kundalini Blowout
A reader shares a particularly harrowing fallout from her Kundalini awakening. “I totally lost my touch with reality (saw entities, visited another dimensions, went to…
The Source of Love
From the moment I awoke, and every minute after, I’ve sensed this incredible love pervading everything, from the discarded chewing gum on the sidewalk to…
Seeking Enlightenment in Lieu of Getting Yourself in Hand
Are you using spirituality and the search for enlightenment as an excuse not to fix your mental, emotional, relational and financial problems? The experience of…
Learn to navigate your mind intentionally
How to interrupt thought loops and take control over your own mind. Still want to stay in Default Mode or are you ready for an…
Are You Living in a Spiritually Induced Limbo?
First in a series of video explorations of post awakening limbo experiences.
Thought Loops: Self Regulation Starts With Your Thoughts
Self regulation is not the same as self control, will power or discipline. Thought loops prevent you from exercising your own agency in life, and…
Remote Viewing and Mental Blind Spots
Remote Viewing is a skill you can learn. Some people have an innate talent for it, but even if they do, they still need to…
Reader Q&A: How to Live and Love After Losing Your Sense of Self
In this Reader Q&A we look at the struggle to find joy and engagement in daily life without a sense of self, without purpose or…
Sex After Enlightenment: Reversal Of Energy
Does this sound really cool? Well, I won’t lie. It is. And it’s also very disturbing if you don’t know what is going on. It…
Under The Hood: Perfection
Do you have the Perfectionism Program constantly running in the background of your Operating System? Do you keep adjusting your behavior to satisfy its demands?…
Losing Your Trajectory
A sudden and profound spiritual awakening can knock you clean out of the life you knew. Whether you have really shifted permanently into an awakened…
Why Am I Still Not Enlightened?
What do you need to do, accomplish, attain or let go of before you can become enlightened? I am fascinated by the belief systems that…
Format Your Hard Drive: Brain Hemispheres Go Offline
Spiritual awakening can bring on a major reformatting of your brain, a bit like wiping a hard drive. It’s not uncommon to hear people speak…
Surrender vs Resignation
Deprogramming is not about improving one’s life. It’s about being oneself, within one’s life. It’s being the author of one’s life, within the parameters of…
Managing Emotional Intensity in a Crisis
The unfolding covid-19 crisis, racial tensions and financial uncertainty is flooding us with personal and ambient emotional intensity. You can go where those rushing emotions…
Everything Must Go!
Yes, I hear you. You’ve got stuff you need to think about. Work issues, practical issues, it’s not all just emotional stuff rattling around in…
Ultra Sensory Woo Experiment #1: Sigil Magic
I’ve imbued these glyphs with special sauce. If you’re game I’d like you to meditate on them, with them, or however you prefer. Print them…
Money MEDITATION + Physical Regeneration
A hypnotic, layered meditation audio spell for drawing wealth, health, and rejuvenation. Well, those are the top notes to keep your mind busy while we…
Figuring Out Who is Enlightened and Who is Not and How to Become Enlightened
It’s totally normal for you to try to accredit the awakened status of various people who claim to be awakened. From my perspective, this is…
Bombardment Tactics
What happens when the Programs fight back? Imagine you are playing tennis with the Programs. You’ve got a nice volley going—they hit the ball to…
Compassion: What is it?
We’re continuing on the theme of greeting yourself with open, friendly curiosity. This time, we approach it from the perspective of compassion. Compassion means something…
Center of Awareness
Are you on or off your throne? Your consciousness has a location and it matters where it is. Where are you? In any given moment,…
Coping with the strange effects of spiritual awakening or Kundalini blowout
Here’s a reader Q&A about coping with sudden changes in energy, perception and so called “psychic” abilities following a Kundalini event. We discuss fatigue, 360°…
Before Enlightenment, The Invitation
There were things happened along the way, though for me this never felt like a gradual process. I was asleep one moment and awake another.…
Reality Check: People In Real Life
Why is the reality of dealing with individual people in real life so different than how we feel about people in general? That impersonal love…
Dropping Into The Void
Investigating the nature of reality. Reality, or the manifested world, pops in and out of existence. It’s kind of like a sine wave — above…
Mental Chatter is the Mind’s Default Mode
There are parts of your brain that register and process various types of experience, and another that narrates it. In default mode, they activate almost…
Reader Q&A: No Longer Able to Function In Life
A total life collapse after spiritual awakening. Let’s explore energetic overwhelm, spiritual awakening vs spiritual experiences, destructive Kundalini, how to re-establish energetic boundaries and mental…
Drama Addict
Why do I keep getting drawn into other people’s drama and conflict when I’m working on inner peace and tranquility? Are you a drama addict?…
Living a Thousand Lives
You choose to be here now, which is evident, since you ARE here now. So be here, fully and with joy, and simply add to…
Enlightenment, Desire, Sex & Time
Sudden enlightenment has taught me a lot about how the desire-mind governs our sexual desire through the perception of time. If I could draw, I…
Confusing Spiritual Awakening with Self Improvement
Have you ever wondered if getting rid of all your mental programming would result in the ability to see reality directly, and unfiltered? Would it…
Bittersweet: Living at the Intersection of Joy and Pain
Those who have described living in the spiritually awakened state as suffused with indescribable love, beauty and joy only told you half the story.
Spirituality, Meditation, Psychology and the Effects of Child Abuse
Does being abused as a child damage your soul? Is it possible that the current received wisdom of psychology is incorrect? I don’t think of…