Fist Full of Dollars

I don’t do spiritual practices in order to have specific experiences. I find that the process has its own momentum and I don’t need to organize it as such.

I’ve also learned that there is nothing special about the experiences, no matter how amazing they seem at the time.

One tends to chase after experiences such as bliss and oneness with what we will, for convenience, call God. But these experiences come and go, they are not the prize, and are often just a big distraction. They can even be a trap, because one gets overly fascinated and focused on having these experiences, when really they are just things that happen along the way…you are supposed to keep moving forward and expanding.

It’s like walking into a room with one dollar bills strewn all over the floor. You can get distracted and spend lots of time gathering them. What you are not aware of is that this is in fact your very own palace and that your throne and the real jewels are further along, through many other rooms. You can spend a lifetime picking up dollar bills, or even finally go to the next room, which is littered with something else that seems valuable but is actually unimportant. I’m sure you get the picture.

If you need to have more of these experiences, or any other experiences, you will. The most you will need to do is make room for it. Just be aware that it’s too easy to become fascinated with the experiences. It’s one thing to acknowledge that they are mind blowing or beautiful or life altering. They are. But grasping at them or trying to acquire more of them or worse, confusing the experiences for enlightenment, is going to divert you from the real treasure.

I received this feedback from a student in the Mastery course...in response to the lesson called "Shifting Reality Streams"⠀
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"Ah, I had a big struggle with that, getting down on myself and it really feeling like a big ...

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I received this feedback from a student in the Mas I received this feedback from a student in the Mastery course...in response to the lesson called "Shifting Reality Streams"⠀ ⠀ "Ah, I had a big struggle with that, getting down on myself and it really feeling like a big giant battle against myself. ⠀ Something has shifted , .....there is less magnetism, less stickiness ....it feels different! ⠀ ⠀ It feels more grounded and stable and is open to really looking at all this openly and without battle and without judgement, just curious that it is happening. ⠀ If there is an entity feeding off of me, that I am a food source for something, well, the lion isn't evil because he eats the zebra, but the zebra certainly doesn't lay down and say "eat me".⠀ ⠀ Have gotten a much better handle on recognizing default mode and daydreaming. Had a great moment of realizing what are my thoughts vs implanted ones. Have also really come to see how boring! the default mode is, always thinking about the same things, saying the same thing in different ways, over and over again....I can come up with much more interesting stuff."

I received this feedback from a student in the Mastery course...in response to the lesson called "Shifting Reality Streams"⠀
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"Ah, I had a big struggle with that, getting down on myself and it really feeling like a big giant battle against myself. ⠀
Something has shifted , .....there is less magnetism, less stickiness ....it feels different! ⠀
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It feels more grounded and stable and is open to really looking at all this openly and without battle and without judgement, just curious that it is happening. ⠀
If there is an entity feeding off of me, that I am a food source for something, well, the lion isn't evil because he eats the zebra, but the zebra certainly doesn't lay down and say "eat me".⠀
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Have gotten a much better handle on recognizing default mode and daydreaming. Had a great moment of realizing what are my thoughts vs implanted ones. Have also really come to see how boring! the default mode is, always thinking about the same things, saying the same thing in different ways, over and over again....I can come up with much more interesting stuff." ...

Mastering your focus is critical. Slackers will either crash and burn or be stranded.⠀
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Your upgrade gives you power and speed. One degree can change your trajectory by a million miles.⠀
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If you feel a tiny grain in the ...

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Mastering your focus is critical. Slackers will ei Mastering your focus is critical. Slackers will either crash and burn or be stranded.⠀ ⠀ Your upgrade gives you power and speed. One degree can change your trajectory by a million miles.⠀ ⠀ If you feel a tiny grain in the flow, remove it and keep flowing. Take action when your attention is impeccable, not when it is fixated. Action that arises out of impeccable awareness does not create misbegotten children.

Mastering your focus is critical. Slackers will either crash and burn or be stranded.⠀
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Your upgrade gives you power and speed. One degree can change your trajectory by a million miles.⠀
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If you feel a tiny grain in the flow, remove it and keep flowing. Take action when your attention is impeccable, not when it is fixated. Action that arises out of impeccable awareness does not create misbegotten children. ...

One of the fundamentals we cover in Peerless...learning to distinguish which thoughts and feelings are yours. What's yours. What's not yours. What you find can be quite surprising. People who are really emotional are often not experiencing ...

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One of the fundamentals we cover in Peerless...lea One of the fundamentals we cover in Peerless...learning to distinguish which thoughts and feelings are yours. What's yours. What's not yours. What you find can be quite surprising. People who are really emotional are often not experiencing their own emotions at all, just picking up and embodying ambient emotions. It's surprising how much of what runs through your mind and emotional system doesn't belong to you, doesn't even have anything to do with you. It's taxing, confusing and unnecessary. This video has audio, so be sure to tap on sound.

One of the fundamentals we cover in Peerless...learning to distinguish which thoughts and feelings are yours. What's yours. What's not yours. What you find can be quite surprising. People who are really emotional are often not experiencing their own emotions at all, just picking up and embodying ambient emotions. It's surprising how much of what runs through your mind and emotional system doesn't belong to you, doesn't even have anything to do with you. It's taxing, confusing and unnecessary. This video has audio, so be sure to tap on sound. ...

Synthetic Self: "I'll do this practice and go deep within to find my higher self, my essential nature."⠀
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The Synth, or your persona, has only mechanical things inside. Programs, apps, data storage, etc. ⠀
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I ...

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Synthetic Self: "I'll do this practice and go deep Synthetic Self: "I'll do this practice and go deep within to find my higher self, my essential nature."⠀ ⠀ The Synth, or your persona, has only mechanical things inside. Programs, apps, data storage, etc. ⠀ ⠀ I see you, and you are massive, immeasurable. Your Synth is like a tiny hologram inside of you, a useful tool. So it's interesting that you rummage about inside the Synth, seeking what is not inside the Synth. Seeking. Being a seeker. Becoming a Seeker. You'll find plenty to look at, lots to discover and tinker with. I rather enjoy tinkering inside my Synth. Only, it's not what you were looking for. ⠀ ⠀ I stand in a room with other people, and I'm massive. I take up the whole room, and more. My consciousness is immeasurable, rolling in and out like the tides. People don't see this. They don't even look for it. The brain is set to match a pattern, and the pattern they are trying to match is the Synth. They are looking for the hologram. ⠀ ⠀ We are massive, undulating and moving like ocean size bodies of water. We also have a Synth tool, a tiny hologram. We are the same, only your location differs. Your default location, where you focus your awareness and "reside"...the place you call Home and Self, is the Synth.⠀ ⠀ Your pattern recognition is set to Synth - to recognize yours and those of others. The world to you is populated by Synths, and the other...the Spirit or consciousness or whatever...this is an exotic thing. A mysterious thing. Because you can't see it directly, even though it is the most mundane, the most common...it's everywhere. You don't recognize it easily. So it seems elusive, "spiritual".

Synthetic Self: "I'll do this practice and go deep within to find my higher self, my essential nature."⠀
⠀
The Synth, or your persona, has only mechanical things inside. Programs, apps, data storage, etc. ⠀
⠀
I see you, and you are massive, immeasurable. Your Synth is like a tiny hologram inside of you, a useful tool. So it's interesting that you rummage about inside the Synth, seeking what is not inside the Synth. Seeking. Being a seeker. Becoming a Seeker. You'll find plenty to look at, lots to discover and tinker with. I rather enjoy tinkering inside my Synth. Only, it's not what you were looking for. ⠀
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I stand in a room with other people, and I'm massive. I take up the whole room, and more. My consciousness is immeasurable, rolling in and out like the tides. People don't see this. They don't even look for it. The brain is set to match a pattern, and the pattern they are trying to match is the Synth. They are looking for the hologram. ⠀
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We are massive, undulating and moving like ocean size bodies of water. We also have a Synth tool, a tiny hologram. We are the same, only your location differs. Your default location, where you focus your awareness and "reside"...the place you call Home and Self, is the Synth.⠀
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Your pattern recognition is set to Synth - to recognize yours and those of others. The world to you is populated by Synths, and the other...the Spirit or consciousness or whatever...this is an exotic thing. A mysterious thing. Because you can't see it directly, even though it is the most mundane, the most common...it's everywhere. You don't recognize it easily. So it seems elusive, "spiritual". ...

You're spinning in circles. The mind wants to fret about something. It wants to rehash, replay -- either a scene or a feeling track. There's nothing wrong with that, except when it's not something you control, initiate and end. This ...

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You're spinning in circles. The mind wants to fret You're spinning in circles. The mind wants to fret about something. It wants to rehash, replay -- either a scene or a feeling track. There's nothing wrong with that, except when it's not something you control, initiate and end. This whirring just happens. Some people leave this thing running, in the background, all the time. ⠀ ⠀ Why? Because you don't know better, mostly. You're used to it, and accept that's just the way it is...unless you become enlightened or achieve some kind of remarkable yogi status. ⠀ ⠀ But it's not like that at all. Your mind is a tool. Use it when you need to, then put it down. That's not Yogi Stuff. It's just basic human stuff. ⠀ ⠀ This background spinning leads to anxiety, friction. If your mind wants to fret, it's okay, let it. But put some boundaries on that. Like...ten minutes, starting now. Go on, fret. Worry. Replay. When ten minutes is up, stop. ⠀ ⠀ Feel better? I mean, from the 10 minutes of whatever that was...worrying. Replaying a feeling track. Rehashing something that happened this morning, when so and so said such and such. ⠀ ⠀ Did anything change? Did you resolve something in this ten minutes? Did you find a solution? ⠀ ⠀ Next time your mind wants to fret, instead of giving it ten minutes, try something different. Make a mental image of what it would feel like if whatever this thing is that your minds wants to fret about was resolved, or what it would feel like if it never happened, or what it would feel like if it was about an alien who lives on another planet and you were looking into their life from a remote viewing portal. Do this for ten minutes. Just hold this in your mind and feel that feeling. After ten minutes, stop. ⠀ ⠀ What was that like? Does it feel different? What does it feel like to feel the mind tugging you toward its default activity? What does it feel like to feel that tug and then choose what to do?

You're spinning in circles. The mind wants to fret about something. It wants to rehash, replay -- either a scene or a feeling track. There's nothing wrong with that, except when it's not something you control, initiate and end. This whirring just happens. Some people leave this thing running, in the background, all the time. ⠀
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Why? Because you don't know better, mostly. You're used to it, and accept that's just the way it is...unless you become enlightened or achieve some kind of remarkable yogi status. ⠀
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But it's not like that at all. Your mind is a tool. Use it when you need to, then put it down. That's not Yogi Stuff. It's just basic human stuff. ⠀
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This background spinning leads to anxiety, friction. If your mind wants to fret, it's okay, let it. But put some boundaries on that. Like...ten minutes, starting now. Go on, fret. Worry. Replay. When ten minutes is up, stop. ⠀
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Feel better? I mean, from the 10 minutes of whatever that was...worrying. Replaying a feeling track. Rehashing something that happened this morning, when so and so said such and such. ⠀
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Did anything change? Did you resolve something in this ten minutes? Did you find a solution? ⠀
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Next time your mind wants to fret, instead of giving it ten minutes, try something different. Make a mental image of what it would feel like if whatever this thing is that your minds wants to fret about was resolved, or what it would feel like if it never happened, or what it would feel like if it was about an alien who lives on another planet and you were looking into their life from a remote viewing portal. Do this for ten minutes. Just hold this in your mind and feel that feeling. After ten minutes, stop. ⠀
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What was that like? Does it feel different? What does it feel like to feel the mind tugging you toward its default activity? What does it feel like to feel that tug and then choose what to do? ...

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