Fist Full of Dollars

I don’t do spiritual practices in order to have specific experiences. I find that the process has its own momentum and I don’t need to organize it as such.

I’ve also learned that there is nothing special about the experiences, no matter how amazing they seem at the time.

One tends to chase after experiences such as bliss and oneness with what we will, for convenience, call God. But these experiences come and go, they are not the prize, and are often just a big distraction. They can even be a trap, because one gets overly fascinated and focused on having these experiences, when really they are just things that happen along the way…you are supposed to keep moving forward and expanding.

It’s like walking into a room with one dollar bills strewn all over the floor. You can get distracted and spend lots of time gathering them. What you are not aware of is that this is in fact your very own palace and that your throne and the real jewels are further along, through many other rooms. You can spend a lifetime picking up dollar bills, or even finally go to the next room, which is littered with something else that seems valuable but is actually unimportant. I’m sure you get the picture.

If you need to have more of these experiences, or any other experiences, you will. The most you will need to do is make room for it. Just be aware that it’s too easy to become fascinated with the experiences. It’s one thing to acknowledge that they are mind blowing or beautiful or life altering. They are. But grasping at them or trying to acquire more of them or worse, confusing the experiences for enlightenment, is going to divert you from the real treasure.

Spiritual limbo...so many people contact me in some form of life suspension. However it manifests for you, it's a confusing phase. Check out my YouTube series on this topic...link is in my bio.

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Spiritual limbo...so many people contact me in some form of life suspension. However it manifests for you, it's a confusing phase. Check out my YouTube series on this topic...link is in my bio.

Spiritual limbo...so many people contact me in some form of life suspension. However it manifests for you, it's a confusing phase. Check out my YouTube series on this topic...link is in my bio. ...

Postcard from your future self:⠀
I've always been a bit of a germaphobe to begin with, so when covid hit, I really imagined my whole life would change...even once it was gone. I couldn't imagine looking at people normally ever again. ...

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Postcard from your future self:⠀ I've always been a bit of a germaphobe to begin with, so when covid hit, I really imagined my whole life would change...even once it was gone. I couldn't imagine looking at people normally ever again. It's amazing how quickly that subsides. We are social animals, and we need physical, social interaction. The first time someone touched me after lockdown, I had a moment of panic. I returned to a restaurant I frequented a lot before covid, and I had gotten to know the owner well. When he saw me, he came and took my hand in both of his and gave me the most heartfelt welcome. For a second I thought I would pass out from horror! But I took a breath and met his gaze and stepped back into my normal self. Our Covid Self is just a brittle bit of armour that we need in order to get through this, but it's not organic. It's not part of us...it's only provisional. There will be a right time, when each of us takes that breath, meets the gaze of another human being, and allows that armor to dissolve away.

Postcard from your future self:⠀
I've always been a bit of a germaphobe to begin with, so when covid hit, I really imagined my whole life would change...even once it was gone. I couldn't imagine looking at people normally ever again. It's amazing how quickly that subsides. We are social animals, and we need physical, social interaction. The first time someone touched me after lockdown, I had a moment of panic. I returned to a restaurant I frequented a lot before covid, and I had gotten to know the owner well. When he saw me, he came and took my hand in both of his and gave me the most heartfelt welcome. For a second I thought I would pass out from horror! But I took a breath and met his gaze and stepped back into my normal self. Our Covid Self is just a brittle bit of armour that we need in order to get through this, but it's not organic. It's not part of us...it's only provisional. There will be a right time, when each of us takes that breath, meets the gaze of another human being, and allows that armor to dissolve away. ...

Have you ever wondered what would it be like to be rid of all mental programs? Is this something we can hope to achieve? I address this in my latest post...linked in my bio.

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Have you ever wondered what would it be like to be rid of all mental programs? Is this something we can hope to achieve? I address this in my latest post...linked in my bio.

Have you ever wondered what would it be like to be rid of all mental programs? Is this something we can hope to achieve? I address this in my latest post...linked in my bio. ...

This is metamorphosis. When fetuses are gestating, they look like fishes and then tadpoles, they have gills and a tail and go through this water world evolution. They emerge something different, but if at any stage they get stuck...well, it's ...

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This is metamorphosis. When fetuses are gestating, they look like fishes and then tadpoles, they have gills and a tail and go through this water world evolution. They emerge something different, but if at any stage they get stuck...well, it's webbed feet for life! The trick is always -- not getting stuck. ⠀ ⠀ #transformation

This is metamorphosis. When fetuses are gestating, they look like fishes and then tadpoles, they have gills and a tail and go through this water world evolution. They emerge something different, but if at any stage they get stuck...well, it's webbed feet for life! The trick is always -- not getting stuck. ⠀
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#transformation ...

I wonder how things are with you. This year will certainly be a turning point in your life. I know how engrossing this kind of change is -- you find yourself conducting a symphony of a thousand and one instruments, without sheet music.⠀
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I wonder how things are with you. This year will certainly be a turning point in your life. I know how engrossing this kind of change is -- you find yourself conducting a symphony of a thousand and one instruments, without sheet music.⠀ ⠀ So I offer you this picture of a single, amazing cloud. I was absolutely transfixed by this ephemeral structure, how it held its non-self together in a vast sky. Watching this cloud, I felt cloud-like. Effortlessly configuring all my non-stuff to create something beautiful, something graceful and singular, set like a momentary jewel in the atmosphere.

I wonder how things are with you. This year will certainly be a turning point in your life. I know how engrossing this kind of change is -- you find yourself conducting a symphony of a thousand and one instruments, without sheet music.⠀
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So I offer you this picture of a single, amazing cloud. I was absolutely transfixed by this ephemeral structure, how it held its non-self together in a vast sky. Watching this cloud, I felt cloud-like. Effortlessly configuring all my non-stuff to create something beautiful, something graceful and singular, set like a momentary jewel in the atmosphere. ...

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