I know what you mean about needing to withdraw from being the center of all that energy and attention for a while.
And I know well the fear of letting go of what you know and not knowing what fills that space. It’s so very uncomfortable.
And this is partly why I want to reach out to people via my website, because most literature out there just tells you that awakening is wonderful and all your problems will disappear. You’ll be rich and healthy and your bald spot will fill in again, because you are so aligned, you are so positive and free of fear, etc.
Blast! Awakening is amazing and powerful and all that.
And maybe for some people everything falls into place perfectly when they awaken. Everything is okay from an expanded perspective, but it’s still scary as hell. Especially since we don’t have a lot of practical guidance or encouragement. Where’s the users manual for this?
Sit with your fear. I hope that, without trying to escape or remedy the fear, you can also hold the excitement of the unknown future.
Also hold the powerful KNOWING that you are here in this very pivotal time and place to pour out your heart strength and your compassion and your laughter, you are here to explore your unique gifts (which may get more unique as things unfold in your awakening) in the world. The world will call forth your gifts, one by one, day by day in ways that may look very different from how you used to deliver your gifts. And there is likely no reason whatsoever for you to be financially impoverished or destitute in this process. While you may experience big shifts and rearrangements in your life, there is likely no reason your life needs to crumble into little pieces. If you or others would benefit from that experience for whatever reason, it might come. But if not, then I’d recommend skipping it!
So you’ll sit in friendliness with your fear, not trying to banish it with forced positive thinking, not trying to banish it by making money or making your career plans more solid.
Your fear doesn’t actually arise from not knowing how you will make your money or what your career will be or anything specific.
Fear will likely be a companion to you at various stages as you let one pattern of life dissolve, before the next pattern comes into clear focus. It does often feel we are afraid of something specific, like fear of not having sufficient income, and by thinking that way we make that external thing more of a problem rather than letting it be just another element of the new pattern that has yet to come into focus. The fear is there as a natural response to shifting the pattern. Make your money and your career plans in joy and excitement and creativity and anticipation…not as a remedy or reaction to fear. Can you be afraid, but not mentally attach the fear to a subject?
This is kind of subtle, but I’ve found it makes a difference. Even telling yourself that you are afraid because the future is unknown is attaching the fear to something. It means if the future was more in focus for you, you would not be afraid. So then there is a remedy to fear, which is getting more details lined up to solidify the future. The fear is just there as part of the pattern shifting. It’s not because you don’t know what the future holds. In a sense, even when you thought you knew what the future held, did you really? No! Even if you had a solid career, you could be hit by a bus the following day or there could be a natural disaster or a pandemic or a stock market crash…no work, or a severe disruption of business as usual or a drastic loss of value in your investments.
So while it always seemed like you knew more or less the details of your immediate future, every day was in fact another opportunity for absolutely anything to happen.
You are needed and wanted and welcome in this world, why should life not reach out to support you? If you have any lingering beliefs as to why life should not rise up in full glory and infinite creativity to support you, now is a great time to notice them and kiss them goodbye.
These beliefs usually come in layers, so even if you have dissolved them on one level, once you get to the next level and you are about to repattern, you are given the opportunity to access the next, more subtle layer of your old-era beliefs so that you can clear them before the repatterning is set for the next phase.
Each time you get to investigate increasingly subtle aspects of your beliefs.
I am in process of doing this right now, as I am squirming uncomfortably between patterns!
Even though this space of being in between is uncertain and uncomfortable, it is the best place to locate these artifacts of conditionality, the places we say no to life.
Anyway, I’ve gone on at length about fear. I was afraid, too.
And I still am, every single time I break out of another shell and emerge into another unknown state of being. It can take a while for the new pattern to come into focus. Sometimes it happens faster, but during the times when it takes very long, there is a lot of fear. Maybe I’ll get to the point where I no longer feel fear when I’m in between patterns. It’s funny though, now when I feel the most fear it’s kind of an indicator that big things are happening.
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One tends to chase after experiences such as bliss and oneness with what we will, for convenience, call God. But these experiences come and go, they are not the prize, and are often just a big distraction. They can even be a trap, because one gets overly fascinated and focused on having these experiences, when really they are just things that happen along the way…you are supposed to keep moving forward and expanding.

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Seeking or avoiding boredom in dreams.
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Enlightenment does not happen to improve life. To an unenlightened person who is inclined toward happiness, life can be glorious. To people who tend toward negative emotions or feelings of low esteem or loneliness or persistent feelings of lack, for those people enlightenment might “improve” their negative state. Enlightenment is not required to live a happy life, filled with awe.

If the world isn’t real, why should I stay?
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