Spiritual awakening can leave you feeling like you don’t belong in this world.
Do you feel detached or estranged from your life?
Like many people who wake up, I went through many phases of working within this utterly unfamiliar level of consciousness.
Some phases turn out not to be phases so much as trajectories that last either a very long time or for the rest of your life. One of the major, life defining trajectories is checking in or checking out.
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After spiritual awakening, you may notice that people treat you differently. And not just people close to you, but people you’ve only just met or people you have casual contact with, such as at the grocery store or post office. What’s going on?
If ever I imagined the awakened state, it surely never included such funky bodily experiences. Or if there were funky experiences, they would have more of a celestial quality and not deal with the everyday operation of the five senses. Mais non.
Those who have described living in the spiritually awakened state as suffused with indescribable love, beauty and joy only told you half the story.
Sudden enlightenment can bring on a cascade of potentially disturbing phenomena. Your brain may not work the way it used to. For instance, you may temporarily lose your ability to read. Have any of you experienced an inability to read after your awakening? The first time it happened to me was in a restaurant.
You’re newly awakened and the people around you can really feel it. They have “spiritual experiences” in your presence. They perceive the light of Source pouring through you effortlessly, and it takes the expression that is needed most at the moment: strength, compassion, tenderness, clarity. Without even meaning to, you find yourself teaching. You won’t be expecting it at all. You won’t see it coming. But one day, people may start worshiping you.
Who knew spiritual enlightenment would be so physical? The body can also go through massive changes and when that happens, you can experience some really weird, unexpected symptoms that can disrupt your life and cause a great deal of anxiety to anyone living with you or close family and friends who witness them.
The effects of doing dream yoga after spiritual awakening can be fruitful…and strange. My late husband lived in a Tibetan Bonpo monastery for months at a time, where he assisted in cataloging and translating their extensive library. He often photocopied teachings he thought I would find interesting, and among these was a short treatise on dream yoga.
Losing your persona may mean losing your status as a person. It can be like having your citizenship revoked, only for the whole human race. In a conversation I was having with a reader on the role the mind plays in what and when we eat, he recounted a story…
Every awakening emerges in its own peculiar way. Some of you will slip in and out of Bliss, some will pretty much be engulfed in Bliss all the time. I was fortunate to own my own business and work from home, so being blissed out was not so much of a problem, though I’m sure it was a little weird for my family.