Bittersweet: Living at the Intersection of Joy and Pain

Those who have described living in the spiritually awakened state as suffused with indescribable love, beauty and joy only told you half the story.

“Jane awoke to her true nature, she awoke into pristine clarity, and henceforth she lived happily ever after.”  Or so the brochure goes. And when you have those mind blowing, yet unsustainable moments of clarity, those amazing but temporary satori experiences, you get a tantalizing taste of BLISS.  If you could only sustain this clarity you imagine you’d inhabit a state of uninterrupted joy, a peace beyond sorrow.

How shocked you will be when you fully awaken and abide in that Ultra Sanity.  Yes, at first it’s BLISS, JOY and PEACE.  In fact, those words are just pathetic hollow symbols that can never begin to touch the states of being they seek to describe.  But if, after a while, they are accompanied by a sadness, a sorrow so great it would crush you out of existence in the moment you turn to face it, don’t panic.  You might feel there is something wrong, you’ve taken a wrong turn somewhere, but you haven’t.

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